Tuesday, October 29, 2013

What I Need in Life

COSPLAY

I want to cosplay someone from Shingeki no Kyojin so so bad but I'm devastated because I don't have the money...yet. But oh my god please please please EL OH EL

LOOK AT THAT PERFECTION I CANT OH MY GOD PLEASE GOD
MUST COSPLAY THESE PERFECT PEOPLE BEFORE I DIE I DONT CARE HOW LONG WOULD IT TAKE ME IM BABY-FACED ANYWAY BUT YEAH ITS BETTER IF IM STILL YOUNG WHEN I COSPLAY THEM AS LONG AS I LOOK PERFECT AT COSPLAYING THEM THAT WOULD BE NICE AS HELL THIS IS A LIFE GOAL GUYS DON'T JUDGE ME I'M HAPPY AND SPAZZING ANYWAY

A CHRISTA LENZ AND/OR ANNIE LEONHARDT PHOTOSHOOT AT THE WOODS

I'm gonna have my hair re-bleached soon heuaheuahueahe in the first place I had blonde hair so I could use the bleach sent to me and because of the feels but anyway, yes please oh my god heuaheuaheuaheuahuea

oh ym god please she doesnt have to be riding a horse heaueuahueahueha

SHINGEKI NO KYOJIN FANDOM MERCH (PREFERABLY ACTION FIGURES)

Fandom merch basically means merchandise of something one is a fan of. For now, I want nothing but Shingeki no Kyojin heauheuaheuahe please
Attack on Titan Wall Sticker (Click here for details)(

Sentinel Levi Cleaning Version (Click here for details)
And here

Bigger Mikasa Action Figure by Medicom (Click here for details)

Medicom RAH Mikasa Ackerman (Click here for details)
Max Factory figma Mikasa Ackerman (Click here for details)
Nendoroid Eren Yeager (Click here for details)

FACE CARE PRODUCTS/MAKEUP

Although my face has been doing better these days thanks to the products and the efforts I've done up until now since the big breakout, I'm still not that much aware about the best products and skin care routine for me.

Added to that, since I'll stay blonde for a while, I think I need the kind of makeup where you could make your eyebrows blonde, not just with the eyebrow pencil heauheuaheuauehuae

SHINGEKI NO KYOJIN MANGA

Or Attack on Titan.

As well as the spin-offs namely 

Before the Fall
A Choice with no Regrets (THIS IS RIVAILLE-CENTRIC GUYS)

As well as the light novels.

SHINGEKI NO KYOJIN PERFUME 

YES PLEASE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH


Details here
Or here
Or here


NINTENDO 3DS AS WELL AS THE SHINGEKI NO KYOJIN 3DS GAME

http://myanimelist.net/forum/?topicid=669035

I don't mind not getting any 3ds because I wouldn't use it as much as the real gamers but having someone to lend it to me for a month or so so that I could buy the game and play it or something heuaheuaeuaheuaheuha

SHINGEKI NO KYOJIN FANARTS AND FANFICS

Simple drawings and/or fanfictions of 

Rivaille x Eren 
Rivaille x Erwin
Rivaille x Hanji
Rivaille x Petra
Rivaille x Mikasa
Rivaille x me HAHAHAHAHAHAHA PLS

Eren x Jean
Eren x Armin

Sasha x Mikasa (their friendship)

Armin x Jean
Armin x Eren x Mikasa (friendship)

Annie x Armin
Annie x Bertholdt
Annie x Bertholdt x Reiner (friendship)

Marco x Jean

Petra x Auruo (unrequited love)

Bertholdt x me HAHAHAHAHAHA PLS

Basically me x anybody or everybody (friendship or romance would be fine) heuaheuaheuaueauhe




So basically anything Shingeki no Kyojin would make me really happy on Christmas as well as my 18th Birthday. To be honest, if I'm going to have a debut/birthday party/dinner, I'm planning for it to be Shingeki no Kyojin-centric 

I'm basically letting this series devour me.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

B L I S S

EDIT: BY THE TIME WE WERE ASKED TO GATHER IN FRONT THERE WERE ALREADY A LOT OF PEOPLE BUT THEN I USED MY LRT GETTING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE SKILL AND GOT IN FRONT YAY

AND I TOOK THE CHANCE TO TOUCH REIKA'S 3DMG IT WAS SURPRISINGLY SOFT I MEAN IF YOU PUT A LOT OF PRESSURE ON IT IT MIGHT GET DEFORMED IT WAS LIKE SOME SORT OF PAPER MACHE BUT ANYWAY

PLUS I TRIED TO TAKE THE BLADES OFF OF THE 3DMG AND THEY WERE STUCK BUT THEN AGAIN IF YOU FORCE IT OUT IT WILL COME OUT LOL

It was the damn fucking 5th of October guys I can't even imagine I fucking did it but yeah I did so yeah.

I don't even know if I'd be able to write it all but here I am trying to write as detailed as I can so please bear with me. Thank you.

Okay so to start the day I woke up at the sound of Guren no Yumiya at about 6 AM and then looked for appropriate accessories to my fashion blogger-ish outfit and then found them and then ate breakfast and painted my nails. While watching Jenna Marbles' videos and laughing at it.

My nail painting thing took so long because I was trying to make the colors a little bit different every 2 nails or so because nothing stops me from doing so. It was such a bore but there's Jenna Marbles so yeah. But still, my original plan includes me being at SMX at exactly 9 AM so I could retouch, do some shit like review for my Social Science II finals, etc but most of all GET IKN LINE AS QUICK AS I CAN BECAUSE I WANT/NEED/MUST/ ETC BE IN THE FRONT ROW SO I COULD SEE REIKA CLEARLY.

Anyway so I took a bath and did my makeup right after.

I ended up leaving or rather having my dad send me to SMX at 10:20. Yes, the time was quite specific because I was looking horribly at my watch heauehnuaheaueua. Take note that me and my dad rode in the motorcycle. Yes, me wearing a black sleeveless top and a knee-length skirt and leather shoes with 1-1.5 inch heels riding the motorcycle. How badass is that.

So, yeah, 10:20. I was then texting my messiah aka the one who would sell me the ticket and found out that she's at the SMX already which made me feel quite embarrassed because two days before this I was talking about me going in first because I really planned to get in line quickly but then she came to SMX before me. Okay that was embarrassing. 

But I ended up waiting a good 20 minutes for her outside because she said her friend's changing and she can't ditch him yet and guards won't let me in because a) I don't have a ticket and b) Because if I went in on other entrances (the one for the SM Big Sale and all that) they'd notice my blonde hair and my makeup and assume that I'm a cosplayer and then send me to the cosplay entrances and then I'll be back to a). So yeah. I spent my time reading Great Political Theories so it wasn't really stressful and wasted.

So there I met her and her personality doesn't seem to match the one she had on Facebook because I, the antisocial reclusive introvert one, seem to be the one who does all the talking and it's weird and nice at the same time because I would prefer it to be this way rather than deal with a whacky primitive fan girl. 

But still, it was really weird because she handed me the ticket and she doesn't even look like she wants the money and I even have to be the one to remember it I mean what if I don't pay for it what would she do right but anyway I did pay her about Php 1.5k for the two tickets, saying that I can't pay for the remaining money because my sister was the one supposed to be paying it and she still seems to be at work so eyah. As shy as she could be, she said it's fine. I'm still the one doing the talking by the way/

Anyway so we got in and I asked her questions about college and all that and found out that she's actually a 3rd year college student and I told her I was younger than her and she just smiled and I thought why can't she take that as an advantage and be all comfortable and bubbly with me I mean I'm younger than her anyway but yeah whatever I like her anyway.

So I met her friend who cosplays as Eren and I asked her why she's still in her civilian clothes and she said she's going to change later. Anyway I had this stupid stupid assumption that the meet and greet would be at Function 5 (because there's a line in front of Function 3, 4, and 5 and I can't breathe because there's a whole lot of people and I'm assuming that a LOT of them are already in line for the meet and greet.

So I excused myself and got in line in front of Function 3, because everyone gets in at Function 3 before getting in the other function halls so there I go. 

And then when I was already about 20 minutes in line one of the guards who were checking tickets told me this is not the right place for me to get in line to because the meet and greet is on another venue and IS GOING ON ALREADY.

So I quickly got out and asked Cosplay.ph staff where Reika's Meet and Greet would happen and they also told me IT'S ALREADY HAPPENING and I have to hurry up and ask if I could still get in and they showed me the way which is in Meeting Rooms 5 and 6 on the narrow hallway beside Function 1.

I wasn't really nervous because the psychic me tells me that it's not true because for the life of me I know that it won't happen until the afternoon so anyway I got in the hallway and I saw four people and a guard.

Three of the four people were actually friends and they're asking the guard is they could still get in but the guard says no so one of them, while walking away, says "Kain nalang tayo" while painfully smiling and the others smiled as painfully as them and they said "Tara" and then walked away.

I then talked to the one girl who was left about what it was about and she told me the thing I just said. Anyway, she's also attending Reika's meet and greet and I asked if it's true that we're actually the first ones and she said yes and I feel like I'm in heaven.

An SMX staff came by and is fixing something at the stand with the list of things to remember while in the meet and greet and I was about to ask something but he doesn't seem to hear me but then when I waved my hand and got his attention, Patricia (the girl with me in the line) called me and IT WAS JUST A SPLIT SECOND BUT I SAW THEM ALL, THE INTERNATIONAL COSPLAYERS, ENTERING THE ROOM BESIDE THE MEET AND GREET ROOM AND I CANT BREATHE AND WE'RE SPAZZING LIKE CRAZY BECAUSE WE SAW REIKA'S HEICHOU BACK I CANT

And she was really nice and I can't breathe and we're spazzing and all that shit but anyway another girl came by and we three became really close despite her having another friend but anyway yeah we're noisy and everything.

Anyway, Orochi, a cosplayer from Indonesia, came out and I went to him/her/whatever carrying the camera and s/he smiled really cutely and gestured something like "Please wait for a bit" and then I said "Okay" and then she went to the restroom HAHAHAHAHAHAHA and when she came back she posed for us BUT THEN MY EXPOSURE COMPENSATION WASNT ADJUSTED SO IT WAS OVEREXPOSED AND ALL THAT FAIL SHIT SO I HAD TO RELY ON PATRICIA WHO TOOK A GOOD PHOTO OF HER 

But anyway we interacted :">

And then other girls got in line as well and Luis/Louise, the other girl I was talking about, tells them that the three of us were the first ones and they have to get in the back of the line and all that and I like her for that because she's bubbly and an extrovert and she won't let people cut the line.

So anyway my sister comes and she said she already ate and I said I haven't eaten lunch yet so I excused myself for a bit and bought brownies at the first floor and came back and gave some to my new acquaintances.

So anyway Reika went out of Meeting Room 4 with about 5 staff surrounding her and I was eating brownies and I CAN'T BECAUSE SHE SMILINGLY LOOKED AT ME WHILE SHE WAS PASSING BY AND WHILE I WAS JUST HOLDING MY BROWNIES AND INAUDIBLY MOUTHING "OH MY GOD" I SERIOUSLY CANT BREATHE GUYS IM 

So yeah of course she went to the restroom and when she came back to the hallway those staff people were telling us "No pictures" repeatedly so the photo I took was a blurry photo of them waving their hands and a blurred heichou.

And then Patricia noticed just then that her ticket says "Second Session ONLY" at the back and then she became nervous and I became nervous for her because she's been waiting since 9 AM and it's such a pain to wait again.

Anyway she told me to be the first one on the line so that she won't be noticed and I said okay.

And then the other guy staff came to the hallway counting down and they were just sitting there talking to each other but in some instances talked to us and all that I don't remember what we talked about but I remember saying I brought reviewers with me because I have an exam and then the staff with the Jean Kirchstein hair said "Saka na 'yan Reika na muna" and then I laughed and that was it.

But I could hear them clearly because they're near and I assumed that they were hipsters because their conversation goes like this:

Guy with long hair + hat: Alam ko na kung bakit sikat si Reika.
Guy with Jean hair: Bakit?
Guy with long hair + hat: *Points at something I didn't look at so that they won't know I'm listening*

And then while laughing they're like "WOOOOHH" which is totally what I'd do but I don't look like a hispter back then so

Anyway we got stabs and my sister and I got in first and there was a pause after us so I immediately understood Patricia can't get in which kind of stings because I like her and I don't want ugly things to happen to people I like.

So anyway the host was positioned RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME and he repeatedly says the rules throughout the whole thing and I just nod and nod and all that shit.

Anyway, I didn't get the chance to write or even think about a question for Reika because I was busy buying for merchandise for Reika to sign (thank fucking God for my sister). I almost bought two big Reika prints for a shocking price of 600 pesos so I had it exchanged to a Shingeki no Kyojin photobok and a small print for the same price and IT'S MORE WORTH IT I MEAN 300 PESOS FOR A FUCKING PRINT THAT IS EVEN SMALLER THAN AN A3 THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOUR PRICING 

So there I bought them and while in line talked to a cute girl and gave the rest of the ticket payment to Cathlyn, the one I met earlier who's already in costume and said all the thank yous and all that.

So anyway SHE came in and we all had those "SHE'S HERE!!!" feeling and I aggressively took pictures and all that shit and SHE INDEED IS A WOMAN BECAUSE HER VOICE IS THAT OF A TOMBOY'S AND YES I JUST STARED AT HER AND ALL THAT SHIT

Anyway I took a video of her answering the question about her Shingeki no Kyojin ship BECAUSE SHE SAID SHE SHIPS ERURI BYE

So after the Q&A we were asked to get in line by the stage and IT MADE ME SHIVER BECAUSE THE HOST NODDED AT ME TO PROCEED AND I GOT IT BECAUSE I'D BE THE FIRST ONE AND I CANT

So there's a maximum of two items to be signed each person and my sister told me I just have them signed so she'll be left by nothing to get signed by Reika but we don't mind because she's not really a fan and she's just accompanying me SHE'S MY MESSIAH SO SHE TOOK PHOTOS OF ME INTERACTING WITH REIKA THANK YOU ATE MAY 

So there I go on the stage and greeted "Hello" to Reika and of course she greeted "Hello" back to me and we're smiling and all that and her translator told her something in Japanese and Reika was like "Oh! Right..." and then she got this card container and got some of her cosplay cards out and then I gave her the things I'll have her sign on and while she was signing the photobook I went "Will you please write my name on it?" and then she looked at the translator who translated it for me THANK YOU BASED TRANSLATOR and then Reika said something and then she grabbed a smaller pen than the one she was using and gave them to me and the translator turned my ticket upside down and told me to write my name in there so I did and wrote my name and I noticed my hands were shaking while I was writing my name.

Anyway I gave the ticket with my name on it to reika who wrote it on the photobook AND THANK YOU GOD 

She signed the print and gave them to me and I was all "THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU" AND SHE WAS THANKING ME JUST AS MUCH AND SHE GAVE ME ONE OF HER COSPLAY CARDS AND I TOOK IT AND SAID THANK YOU FOR THE NTH TIME AND SHE WAS JUST THE SAME AND I PUT ALL THE STUFF BACK IN THE TABLE AND JUST HAND MY HANDS UP LIKE WHEN YOU'RE AT THE CHURCH AND WAITING FOR THE HOLY BREAD FROM THE PRIEST YES THAT KIND OF REACHING OUT AND THEN SHE TOOK MY HANDS AND WE SHOOK THEM AND AND WE WERE SMILING AT EACH OTHER AND ALL THAT SHIT I CANT

OKAY SO THERE I HAD TWO PHOTOS WIHT REIKA AND ONE PHOTO WITH THE THREE OF US AND THEN WE LEFT THE STAGE BYE

So there I can't.

So anyway I was hungry and even though the host RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME says not to eat inside I was still eating my brownies IN FRONT OF HIM and he doesn't even care idk why but anyway yeah

He points out the gifts on the table beside me and the awesome cosplayers sitting beside the table and labeled them as the "spectators". I asked whether it's alright to take photos of them and he seems reluctant to answer but it basically means yes. I only got to take a photo of the girl who had short pink hair and DIDNT REALIZE THE ONE WITH THE LONG PINK WIG WAS JESUKE JES I CANT BREATHE AND IT WAS SO AWFUL BECAUSE SHE'S THE ONE WHO'S REALLY GOOD-LOOKING AT THE PEOPLE SITTING THERE BUT SHE KEPT STANDING AND ALL AND I ONLY REALIZED IT WHEN I GOT HOME AND DAMN IT MAN

So yeah, there we go with the regrets I had at CosMania, and the fact that I was so decent in front of Reikais questionable because seriously I was like "HOLY SHIT THIS IS IT I DONT HAVE A GIFT READY FOR YOU LET ME JUST GIVE MY VIRGINITY INSTEAD" before going in but heauheuaheaueuaheau

Another things that I've noticed while the Meet and Greet was going on are stuff like Reika didn't even had the chance or grabbed the chance to open her bottle of water and drink from it, she's wearing the 3DMG and some people just kept requesting difficult poses for her such as her kicking the people, etc which is really uncomfortable, etc. I feel sorry for Reika but she loves what she was doing anyway.

I was the first person who got in and also the last besides the staff and Reika HAHAHAAHHAAHA I DID THINGS LIKE ASKING THE HOST STUFF ABOUT COSPLAY.PH WHILE EVERYBODY'S ALREADY GOING OUT AND ALL THAT SHIT

So that's it about my day I've been writing this journal for forever now and I'm quite tired and hype-less so I think I'm gonna stop. Besides I already wrote the most amazing things anyway. With details. Bye.